Tag Archive | Relationships

The Magic of Sisterhood

Having never had a sister by blood, I am always intrigued at how close I have become to some of my sisters ( sister friends). We have experienced a tremendous amount of life journeys together. I am honestly grateful for the good and bad a like. Nevertheless, I find magic in having so many sisters from other misters. Stories to exchange. People to watch. All these little moments. If you are wondering what sparked this Luvleeh Doodle … well I enjoyed a day with one of my younger sisters today. She was glowing in her beautiful essence. It has been months since I’ve had the joy of seeing her but just like that I was a college girl again. We talked, we shared, we ate, we shopped… we did it all in the matter of of a few hours. Funny we live close but we rarely see each other with all of life’s demands and all. Anyway, I’m blogging because well I need a space to put all this energy and two… because there’s a magic of sisterhood tat I’ll never know by blood but oddly God blessed me we several sisters whom I can forever grow with and learn from and that… well that is just magical.

#LuvleehThought

Poem: Soul to Soul by Luvleeh Poetiklocks

He shows me his heart without words

and coming from a poet that means the world-

Having your heart beat hold a conversation with the rhythm of love

It’s mesmerizing

Every time I tried to figure out cupid

He had a funny way of sending me on a chase

This time he aimed and took out my heart

This hand grenade heart of mine exploded

Left me with no familiar pieces, so I no longer needed

a reason to figure out what love is

When u have nothing to pull from

You must start again

Rebuild

Learn anew

Try a new way

And it did… it came… in the kiss against my pineal gland.

In the gentle touch of his fingertips against my waist line

He finds beauty in the glitches of my matrix

He makes lines like stretch marks across my belly with slow licks

as though sugar has spilled in my curves

He yearns for my sweetness

I crave him… the same.

I can feel his stare upon me even in absence

I draw closer on his presence

I drown in his luminescence

He is the light I’ve sought in darkness

I never thought I’d make it through this tunnel of despair

I forgotten what pain can be

He heals me.

He fills me.

I can’t control the motion of my emotions

I’m rolling through his passion

I need this high

This fix-

Shoot into my veins

A mix of infatuated lust and unspeakable love

I implode

Overdosed on his

Heart, an arsenal of pleasure

This is what it feels like to penetrate your dreams

And become one with your lover…

Ignite me.

Insight me.

Invite me into this unknown world

Show up willing to teach me what it is to be seen

To breathe… To exist fully

Capture my soul.

My eyes see strength- in how strong you stand to your word

The unspoken poems

The silence I always feared

I welcome now

For the one thing I was always running from was my own truth

The belief that love needs no name

No introduction

No how to instruction

But two hand grenade hearts

A blank canvas

And the art of seduction

The beat of tomorrow without words

A conversation about love

Soul to soul

love annihilated when my chest exploded

love itself is sustainable

It is here, I understand the way he speaks to me…

It is here I understand I can let it all be

In his smile I find peace

Being in love

Is letting go of everything

(c) 2016. Leandrea “Luvleeh Poetiklocks” Hill. All Rights Reserved.

Sakura: A Luvleeh Experience Volume 1

Home to where I host Newburgh's Open Mic the last Thursday Each Month!

Home to where I host Newburgh’s Open Mic the last Thursday Each Month!

“With each teardrop I-
gave to the heavens; God rained
down all his blessings.”
– Leandrea Hill- Excerpt From My First Book “Sakura: A Luvleeh Experience Volume 1”

Blessed morning,

I woke today excited for all the new adventures life is tossing my way. God has truly shown me that this is my season. The many years toiling over failed or unfinished projects have come to an end. I completed and now am publishing(ed) my first “real” book of poetry. I received the proof yesterday 5.10.12. (The day my Luvleeh Inks & Links contest ended!)

Previously, I self published – and I mean from the start to finish AND print- two limited edition chapbooks; that many I gave away. “L.I.P.S: A Collection of Poetry” and “Strokes Of A Petals Edge: The Chapbook”. However, TODAY I woke knowing I created something through 3 years; yes THREE LONG YEARS of hard work, crashed laptops,book title changes, editing, re-editing, contracts, cuts, adds, laughs, cries, a few relationships, a late night snack- make that two, weight gain- weight loss, new friends and old alike- and the most PATIENT FAMILY, FRIENDS AND EDITOR- (LeighLambEditor@gmail.com) I digress lol.

I woke knowing when I apply my strengths- and maintain the vision- I’m capable of doing all I set my heart/mind to in life. People always said I should write a book, but I was always unsure or fearful how it all got done. I researched, asked questions, got a couple mentors, and just WENT FOR IT!

I must say- This- THIS MOMENT right HERE- feels Oh SOOOOO Good. I have crossed over into the world of Published Writers. My book soon to fend for itself on the bookshelves across this world! I feel like I’m letting my baby fly for the first time; trusting it to soar through the literary world receiving critiques and appraisals…but best of all- being received. I look forward to the book signings, the book fairs, the interviews and more. It’s what I was destined for when I said yes to being a writer/poet.

To all those who stuck with me- I love you. “Sakura: A Luvleeh Experience Volume 1” by Leandrea Hill is officially HERE!

Still Spreading Unity Through Poetry-

Peace Love & Poetik Enlightment,

Leandrea “Luvleeh Poetiklocks” Hill

Author Leandrea Hill

Author Leandrea Hill

“Spreading Unity Through Poetry”

“I am Renea Nuru. Reborn Light.”

A Luvleeh Thought: Love Is…

“Love is… Patiently waiting for your heart to know what your spirit already believes. You are worthy of every aspect it has to offer your life.”- Leandrea Hill

I find that chasing love will only make love run. When you stand still going through life, just as you should, KNOWING you are worthy of it… Love will come. I went through a string of relationships and dating lately… only to find out… The love I give myself is God like, so why would I settle for anything less than that when allowing love in. Make sense? Maybe this is just another Luvleeh Thought ramble but maybe it isn’t… either. People always question love; some even place Lust in the Love category… but when I look at Love I know… I am worthy of everything it has to offer. That alone… is worth waiting for… so for Love I’ll wait… Loving me more daily.  I know it’s how I attracted some amazing people into my life. Though a committed relationship didn’t fully develop, some amazing friendships and business opportunities did, for that alone I am grateful- and I love them for it. If you have given up on love, try to set aside your fears or anger and let Love – Love you… starting w/ you Loving YOU!

Be blessed all.

Just a Luvleeh Thought.

Spreading Unity Through Poetry

Peace Love and Poetik Enlightenment,

Luvleeh-

 

Morality Vs Sex

Greetings Readers,

The following is a blog I wrote for Owl\’s Asylum which was originally derived from a BTR broadcast titled  Sex, Love & Other Shit with The Unchained Mind . I enjoyed the write as much as I did the interview. Continue being supportive and please see the noted links to join the extended forums on his site owlasylum.net. He challenges the mind over there! Feel free to subscribe and stay updated on posts from Poetik Rendezvous.


Morality Vs Sex

Haiku: Morality vs Sex

Morality lost;

Mind drowning in consciousness;

Sex unleashed its fury.

-Luvleeh Poetiklocks

(Inspired by @OwlsAsylum’s quote (paraphrased) “…Just because one is conscious, does not mean they are moral.”)

 

Sex, Love & Other Shit with The Unchained Mind on BTR was an interesting three hour interview/ talk session with the infamous @OwlsAsylum. There were some controversial topics that were brought to my attention in regards to (black) men and women and their views on the given subject matter. The above quote drew my attention because consciousness does not equal morals. I was asked to write this blog concerning my views on men in the present years that are more inclined to be with women who are experienced over choosing a virgin. I feel a man can be conscious about a woman’s sexual past, but this does not mean he will judge her upon it, thus seeking her hand in marriage/relationship.

First in order to explain this, I must go into detail in regards to what I feel experienced is in this modern day as well as being a “virgin”.  There are two types of experienced women- the stereotypical female who is marked as a “slut” for being actively involved in a very promiscuous sexual life. The other is the stereotypical “good girl” she’s had few sexual encounters or many but solely with those she’s been romantically involved with (dating); one men feel they can bring home to mom. Then there is the “virgin” she is in essence pure, untouched, “waiting for the right man”, marriage etc. {{{Side note: I know of women who are physically in essence virgins, but engage in sexual activity that doesn’t involve vaginal penetration.}}}

This all being said I find most women by the age of 21 have experienced at least one sexual encounter of any degree {i.e vaginally, orally or anal intercourse.} whether voluntarily or involuntarily. This being stated, on average, men are accustomed to meeting, dating or marrying women who are not “VIRGINS” just as well as women will very unlikely meet a mate who is himself a virgin. Nevertheless, in our society it is more accepted to have a man who has sewn his wild oats, than to allow a woman the same freedom. She then becomes the “slut”- the less desired female for marriage, but the first called when a man wants to sew some more oats.

My questions then are…how is this woman looked down upon for a relationship when she expresses herself the same way a man does? Why is it ok to have one or two partners but not many? How does the good girl receive more attention when it comes to marriage over the slut or nowadays virgin? What does morality have to do with decision making when it comes to relationships, marriage or simply hooking up, if ones morals represent what they feel are right? This is regardless of the choices they’ve made to sleep with 100 people, one person or no one.

Now I understand morality is defined by dictionary.com as “virtue in sexual matters; chastity” even “moral quality or character” but then it returns to my belief that one’s morals are what HE/SHE feels is right for them! Chasity -to me- can represent simply waiting for the right guy—- not necessarily marriage. I myself fell into this definition of chasity as I lost what I considered “virginity” at 18 years old.

@OwlsAsylum gladly agreed that morals represent the individual. However, he begged to differ from me saying that men are more attracted to a virgin, solely because they are not exposed to being intimate with other men, over men wanting the experienced woman.  I understand the desire to be with a virgin, but I find within the males I’ve been exposed to that having a more experienced woman is well …more exciting within the bedroom & relationship overall. This becomes a bit of a challenge for them (men) to take on new and more interesting sexual intercourse- compared to a woman, being a virgin, who may be unsure of herself (at first) sexually.

Then he stated that (paraphrased) “There are a lot of situations right now where women are trying to set up more buddy like relationships than marriage…”  This again goes back to ones morals. If a woman chooses to have sex with a man over dating/marrying him it becomes her choice. When and if she becomes ready to marry she will make that decision on her own. I find that many of the examples of a good long lasting “til death do we part” marriages are becoming slim to none as our elders are passing.

What IS accepted is the promiscuous individual. This means more and more young women having sex “before marriage” exposing them to the experiences that come from being sexually active. This in turn may affect them emotionally – not wanting to trust / be committed to a man OR sexually- finding love represents having sex with a man. Either way- she is still more likely to find a mate (whether he’s good or bad) over the young woman who waited and kept her virginity because WOMEN LIKE SEX JUST AS MUCH AS MEN!

So, men are going to seek that sexual diva regardless of her past to have what he wants…GOOD SEX! His morals state- if he can trust her, love her, make her his queen….then why not take her as his own? Thus leading to this man being conscious of what he is getting himself into, knowing what both their actions can lead to, yet making the adult decision to take her hand for LOVE’s sake. It’s about what one can bring to a relationship, not the looseness of her walls. {{{Side Note: They have toys to tighten walls as well as surgery….but that’s another blog.}}}

What it comes down to be is one’s morals will determine if they desire to be with a virgin or a woman who has seen a few “cocks” in her life. I, for example, believed strongly in the singlehood of being a free spirited woman and enjoyed the pleasures of the men I encountered, until I desired a more permanent relationship. I began searching myself for the things I wanted to change to become a more committed woman, though I still was very experienced in life & sex. When I met my current fiancé he was unconcerned of the encounters that came before him because he desired my heart- the sexual experience was simply an additive.

In the end, @OwlsAsylum brought my mind into the heated pot of his beliefs. I respect him for standing by his thoughts/words. I think it is beautiful that the virgin is still desired, but for those women like myself who are experienced – be it the “slut” or the “good girl”- there are still men out there who desire them too! Enjoy sex….safely and stand by your morals regardless if it is immoral in another’s eyes when it comes to sex & love…there are endless possibilities.

Written by Leandrea “Luvleeh Poetiklocks” Hill

 

 

Thanks for reading Continue spreading Unity Through Poetry- in all forms art….

Peace Love and Poetik Enlightenment

Luvleeh Poetiklocks

Poet & Founder of Luvleeh Inks & Links

Reversed Love By Luvleeh Poetiklocks

Reversed Love

Overcoming the sting
Bullet wound to the soul
He lashes out tongue whips that pierce the skin in a lovely medley of pain
I love him…. Though sometimes our darkened nights follow into our days, reversed love
I need him … beyond the heart beat
I know he means well
Though escape of emotions cries out
He wants to protect me with his fears
I reassure him… No need to fear for he is strong in his manhood
I love him …Though sometimes our darkened nights follow into our days, reversed love
Sometimes we don’t even get it… Those love hate relationships where love out ways the bull-shit
And bull shit fertilizes our love… From it grows the rooted trees of our joyous days…
Multicolored leaves make me more and more visually open
My throat not closed to his potions I swallow all his grief, happiness and dreams
Rainbow’d love making
He lingers inside me… Reverse pregnancy
I love him….beyond the heart beat
I know he means well…
I fall short of the story I tell
See I provoke him with strategies that mock the naïve
I’m climbing our tree… strategically planning to marry he…
Him the keeper of my roots…
The maker of all things subliminal… Underneath the loud voices mocking old pain…
I love him….Though sometimes our darkened nights follow into our days… reversed love…
Never hate…
He’s planted… with the pistol whip of a bullet to my heart.

(c) 2011 Leandrea Luvleeh Poetiklocks Hill. All Rights Reserved. No reproduction of this work in any form is permitted without written consent from the author.

{Poem} The Accused

Please listen to the accompanying music 😉 thanks Common Testify Instrumental as you read.

Click here then read~> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgAvQyk7C5M

 

The Accused

 

He was accused of killing her.

From the blood that stained

the walls and sheets in

his white washed world.

He bowed his head

Agreeing.

The prosecutor surely finding him guilty.

She was known to the

community for being such a prominent figure

But her fingers, scratched into his face

The night he chased after her into the garage

One last time.

She screamed at the top of her lungs…

 

Roll the clocks back…

 

Smiles exchanged in warm embrace

Love engaging the pier

Where water washed against

the shore harder than lovers exchanging blows

She was in love…

He molded her heart

So she blocked the rhythm of his steady beat

Kept it out of sync from his own

Fear of having what she always wanted

He sensed her trepidation

Reassurance that amore was all they

needed to move to next level…

 

Flash forward…

 

Stalking letters

Appearances at the job…

Public displays of affection

Now turn to rejection as fists

carry with them the truth that love

no longer lives here…

Yet lovers never part…

Neighbors aware of sobbing crashes

Glass thrown

Plates shattering

Babies wake in the night

Police notified

But no responses

No protection

Lovers …

That’s what they were

Along late night dances

with fists and cigarette smoke coating

their dreams

Misty eyed drunken soul

She gave in to learned activity

 

She shot and missed

 

He turned and grabbed

the gun from her hands…

Sick of her continued bashing

Domestic struggles in the darkened society

As she ran;

Then turned clawing face

He shot her straight

in the forehead

Her thoughts now cascaded down his cheek..

Blood red and full of blackened fury

He dropped the gun.

His hand wiped the brains from his face

The same one she beat nightly in drunken rages

Afraid to love the man

who showed no emptiness in his passionate heart

He loved her enough to love her in death;

To save his own life and part.

 

Court room…

 

Hand cuffs chain link this man

Steel gates await his arrival

But with no regrets;

Accused of

Domestic violence

Because he killed a drunk bashing female.

 

 

 

(c) 2010 Leandrea “Luvleeh Poetiklocks” Hill. All rights reserved.

 

This was written in the likes of another poet’s artistic flow.{{The Challenge}}

For those who know my work it’s a bit of a twist and I enjoyed applying it to such a write.

Keeping the Unity Through Poetry

 

Also in keeping with my slogan for this month…. “L.O.V.E- Love Over Violence Everyday” please check the following::

 

For more info about Domestic Violence Awareness with men and women please see:

http://www.ncadv.org/

http://dahmw.org/

http://batteredmen.com/