Early A.M.

It’s 4:27 am and I’m finally sitting down long enough to write something. It’s been years since I took a moment to write on my blog.  Lately,  being transparent is key to healing and happiness. Learning to be ok with fear- for it’s only what we think; not the reality of a situation that makes it difficult. Like- opening my heart. I opened my heart to let go of loved ones and embrace new ones. It didn’t take overnight but I learned the joys of patience with my heart.  This week my patience pays off by getting through the final stages of divorce. My heart has been heavy on returning to my old self tho’ much better now- I’ve developed this openness to receiving what the universe has to offer. So far it’s in the peace of letting go.

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Ooooh I think I have a Luvleeh Thought

God Is An Artist

God is An Artist

last night
painted poetry
on the walls of my heart

this morning
i looked in awe
at the art of my soul

God is a painter
a fierce sculptor
a dynamic poet
a melodic musician

i am His masterpiece
i submit willingly
as though allowing universe
to fully take over

it is in this moment
i free myself
I am able to live

Submit your readings and songs for the 365 Podcast episode 2

Espen Stenersrød- From Pen To Heart

New episode out in 7 days

I have once again gotten some terrific readings and songs from you guys. You have done an amazing job so far, and the listeners can really look forward to some really heartfelt emotions in the next week.

The concept is real easy, You find your favorite poem in the challenge so far, record your own interpretation of that poem, with whatever equipment you have, and then send it to me and I will air a new episode every month

If you want to submit your readings or your songs you can send it to: mesayah81@gmail.com

While waiting for the next, here is the last month episode

Peace love and unity

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Being Friends With An Ex Yes OR No?

Should new bf/gf control who you are friends with? I just lost a very dear friend of mine because his new girlfriend feels he should not be friends with 1) any females and 2) any exes. I sadly fall into both categories. It’s very difficult ending the friendship because of her insecurities and quite frankly, I find it to be so past paradigm. 

We are clearly in an age where some people still fail to handle their personal issues. They continue to try and control everything and everyone around them. This is SO unhealthy. I know I was like this once.  This friend of mine and I were connected for a long time he saw me through some rough experiences. In the end , we as a couple were not good- but as friends we had a serious bond. There was no intimacy or any of that. He opened up from his old way of thinking to see you can still be friends with your ex no matter what caused the breakup. ( which for us was a difference of spiritual beliefs and parenting.) 

He told me his new woman erased all the females in his phone. *ROFL* and then told he proposed. *Raised eyebrow* So- he proposes to a clearly unstable individual. I didn’t know what else to say. So I said, “Well out of respect I will end our bond. It hurts me to do so because you are a very good friend of mine. One I’ve told my husband about despite all. Congrats on ur engagement. I’ll be deleting you after this. I’m sorry your new gf has a closed mind. God bless.” Yeah probably not what he expected. I know why I don’t open to so many people now- lol. I guess he’s just one who allows his woman to control him. *shrugs* I can’t fault him for trying to be a good man. I applaud him. I just hope in time they seek healing together. Otherwise… it can be a very lonely life.

To think a man cannot have friends or conversations because his woman raids his space. That is not trust or honesty at all. The funny thing is I told him I’d talk to her. I don’t care that she is insecure. These things that people do to others for their own gratification truly kill me. 

With that I sign out today asking… Should you be friends with your EX – yes Or No? & Why or Why not?